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THAT IS WHAT I WILL BE UPDATING FROM NOW ON.
WHEN YOU SEE THE DINOSAUR-WITH-HEARTS ICON AGAIN, YOU WILL KNOW YOU'RE IN THE RIGHT PLACE.

FRIEND ME SOON SO I HAVE FRIENDS, PLS!!!!

Um.........I'm back?


This is weird, because I think approximately no-one else still uses their lj. Oh well. Saves me the trouble of making a grand re-entrance to the world of pointless blogging on nothing important, ie my life.




Ummmmmmmm...



Yeah.
Basically everyone is gone and I'm super depressed.
Plus, my father and aunt are worried I'm not going to get into college (yeah, already), so now I'm worried about it. And I haven't taken my meds regularly since...before this summer and it's starting to make me sick. And EVERYONE IS GONE AND SCHOOL DOESN'T START FOREVER AND NOW I HAVE TO START RESUME-BUILDING AND I'M NOT SLEEPING AND I AM JUST SUPER DEPRESSED. GREAT.












On the plus side, I seem to have retained my lj style.

Oh. And I was trying to make a new one. But apparently AwkwardSubmarine is too long for a username, and I couldn't come up with another one I wanted.

THIS IS AN ENTIRE POST ABOUT HEROES.
I AM NOT EVEN WRITING ABOUT MY LIFE, BECAUSE IT IS NOT AS IMPORTANT.

O.M.G.
NOTE THE EMPHASIS PROVIDED BY THOSE PERIODS THERE.

"TWO HEROES WILL FALL"
...EXCEPT ACTUALLY, LIKE, ALL OF THEM IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER.
BUT OMG!!!!
NATHAN AND NIKI!!! WHO THE FUCK WAS EXPECTING THAT?


...ANYONE THINKING ABOUT IT OUGHT TO, BECAUSE THEY WERE THE MOST USELESS CHARACTERS IN THIS SEASON, AND PROBABLY NOBODY'S FAVORITES AT ALL.
BUT OH MY GOODNESS.
THAT WAS SO UNEXPECTED, I ACTUALLY ALMOST DIED BOTH TIMES.
OF SHOCK AND HORROR.
I LOVE THE PEOPLE WHO MAKE THIS SHOW SOOOOOOO MUCH.




...NOW: CLAIRE NEEDS TO BE LESS RETARDED.
SERIOUSLY.
IF MOHINDER CAN ACTUALLY GROW SOME BALLS FOR ONCE, YOU CAN THINK ABOUT THINGS AND NOT BE AN ANGRY ANGSTY TEENAGER WHO NO-ONE CARES ABOUT.

MR. BENNET IS DOING THE MOHINDER THING.
BEING STUPID BECAUSE HE THINKS IT WILL HELP.
AND THAT IS WHY HE SHOT NATHAN, ON THE ORDERS OF BOB WHO IS STILL WORKING WITH ANGELA PETRELLI (YES...THAT IS MY NEW WORKING THEORY).

I HOPE THAT ADAM ISN'T GONE FOREVER!
I WOULD BE SO SAD!
HE WAS THE BEST VILLAIN!
WELL...NO. SYLAR IS THE VILLAIN. BUT OH MAN.
NEXT VOLUME IS CALLED VILLAINS.
IT IS GOING TO BE SOOOOOOO AMAZING, YOU DONT' EVEN KNOW.
I DON'T EVEN KNOW.
YET.
YET.

NATHAN'S LITTLE NARRATIVE HELPED TO REDEEM PETER A BIT.
BUT ONLY A BIT.
HE'S STILL STUPID.
BUT OHHHHH MAN THAT VIRUS DROPPING WAS A TENSE MOMENT.
ESPECIALLY WHEN MY SCREENSAVER STARTED RIGHT WHEN IT DROPPED!!!!
I ALMOST KILLED MY COMPUTER THEN AND THERE.
AND WHEN IT TRIED THE SAME THING WHEN SYLAR WAS TESTING OUT HIS POWER.

HOW WRONG IS IT THAT I WAS GLAD MAYA GOT OWNED BY SYLAR, AND THEN KILLED BY HIM?
HONESTLY.
HOW BAD IS IT THAT I DISLIKE HER THAT MUCH?
I MEAN, I FELT BAD WHEN SHE FOUND OUT ALEJANDRO WAS DEAD.
BUT SERIOUSLY, WOULDNT' THAT BE A MOMENT FOR BLACK TEAR FREAK OUT, REALLY?
...OH WAIT.
I GUESS IT WAS.
SHE JUST GOT SHOT FIRST.

SPEAKING OF WHICH, HOW DID SYLAR GET SUCH GOOD AIM?
AND HOW IS ZACHARY QUINTO SO GOOD?
WHY WAS SYLAR THE BEST OF LIFE IN THIS EPISODE?
SERIOUSLY.
IT WAS LIKE SYLAR TIMES TWO. BUT BETTER.


LOOKS LIKE NEW ORLEANS ISN'T OVER...
BECAUSE MICAH'S MOMMY DIED AND NOW HIS RELATIVES'LL HAVE TO TAKE OVER.
*MOURN*


HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

HAVE I MISSED ANYTHING?


OH!
HIRO!
IS BACK WITH ANDO!
YAY!!!!





UM...THE END?




(Last thought: I like how my icon is actually wrong. Of the three, I only like Sylar anymore. And only as a character in a functioning way.)

Health.
Street Scene.
Heroes.
All the good things in life.


First Item of Business: I am hell of sick. Oh my yes. But improving.

Second: COME SEE STREET SCENE!!!
THURSDAY/FRIDAY/SATURDAY AT SEVEN.
SUNDAY AT THREE.
My real role is Thursday and Saturday, so you should come see that.
Unless you also want to see Lisa, in which case you should come one of those nights and then Friday or Sunday.
MOSTLY, YOU JUST NEED TO COME SEE IT.


Third: Heroes.
Yessssssssssssssssss.

You're not fucking there.
Why are you NEVER fucking there?
Why can't you just be there and do something right ever?

I'm so pissed off I can't even talk.
I can't even be decent.
I can't even make myself happy, because I am so over the top.

AND YOU WONT' FUCKING GET IT.
YOU CAN'T LISTEN FUCKING LONG ENOUGH TO EVEN BOTHER TRYING TO FUCKING UNDERSTAND.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU.
WHAT THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO DO TO GET REAL LOVE AND REAL ATTENTION.
WHY THE FUCK CAN'T YOU JUST DO ONE DAMN THING RIGHT.


And why can't someone else just step up and fucking take your place.
Why is it I have to feel so completely alone always.
Why can't you just listen and understand.
Why can't things just be fixed and work out and be okay for awhile.

Because I'm too fucking wrong and you're too fucking wrong.
And because you've decided I'm so wrong on purpose, you won't help me right.



Fuck you. 

I was in a super foul mood last night and this afternoon, so I was definitely considering just not even watching Heroes.
And then I realize it was the only thing I look forward to on a regular basis.
That, and the fact that geeking out with Griff is also highly therapeutic and about the only true enjoyment I get in a week.



But Griff is not online and I am pissed.
So, here we are.

AND I'M NOT EVEN CUTTING IT.
YOU FUCKERS CAN JUST SCROLL DOWN.



O.M.G.
LAST FIVE MINUTES JUST MADE THE ENTIRE SEASON BETTER.
All the weird dumbness has been totally redeemed.
I mean, I knew something like this episode was coming, but HOLY SHIT.
First of all, I want to fucking kill Mohinder.
And West.
And Claire.
Because they are all being RETARDED.
Mr. Bennet is morally gray and a little crazy, but at least he's not trying to KILL THE WORLD.
HELLOOOOOOOOOO.
Although this conflict is becoming one-sided in a real hurry.
Which leads us to the main excitement of the episode.
ADAM MONROE.
DAVID ANDERS.
I AM GOING TO BURST A BLOOD VESSEL FROM THE EXCITEMENT!
I knew he wasn't dead.
No way, man.
Admittedly, though, his still being young was a surprise. But I suppose cell regeneration would prevent aging.
(Growth is different, which explains why he reached maturity and he and Claire didn't stay babies...ha...)
BUT OMG.
It's so COMPLETELY unexpected and yet it makes SO MUCH SENSE.
And he's going to be SO CRAZY.
...unfortunately, Peter is retarded and siding with him.
Against Hiro?
Hmmmm...
Speaking of Hiro - he's back in the present!
Yay for Ando!!!
Now, I knew that the Hiro-being-Takezo thing would happen.
Go check my older posts.
I AM REDEEMED. (Quite frankly, I wasn't expecting it quite like that, but whatever.)
Hiro is back with Ando, we have left feudal Japan (although that traipse makes SO much more sense now...) and Yaeko is gone forever.
Moving on...
YAY MATT!
YAAAAAAAAAAAY MATT!!!!!
That's pretty much all I have to say on that subject.
Niki is a real character again!
She is really involved and has real conflicts!!! Hooray!!!
That Nathan and Niki bit was kind of odd, though. Not gonna lie.
But whatever.
Bob.
Bob Bob Bob Bob Bob.
What can I say?
You're kind of weird...but surprisingly not as much of a bastard as previously thought.
And of course, Peter.
Oh dear.
Oh dear oh dear oh dear.
How are we going to stop you? (And how did you get lightening, hmmmm?)
Now, the future was the scariest shit I've seen in a long time, not gonna lie.
The bodies...*shiver*
And HOW THE HECK IS ANGELA PETRELLI STILL ALIVE SO FAR AHEAD? GAH!
Oh well. She's served her purpose I suppose.
Now tell me what her power is, BECAUSE SHE DOES HAVE ONE.
And finally - I AM GOING TO MURDER CLAIRE, WEST, AND MOHINDER.
Claire for being dumb and angsty teen and in love with 
West for just being a dick...and thirty. "Am I moving too fast?" EWWWWW.
And finally - Mohinder.
Come ON.
I know Mr. Bennet's really crazy, but FOR CRYING OUT LOUD.
THERE WON'T BE A PLOT IF YOU KILL HIM.
YOU DUMBASS.
...my brother was really confused when I shouted at him for being a stupid prat.
But honestly, I couldn't shout everything I really was thinking to the house with my brother and mother, could I?

Best part of the episode, honestly: NO MAYA/ALEJANDRO. NO MICAH/MONICA. MINIMAL CAITLIN. NO KRISTEN BELL. YESSSS.






The end.

...yep.
Trying again.


Hoo boy.




(Username: Kouou03
...friend me.) 

HEROES HEROES HEROES HEROES HEROES.



Post about NY coming soon...probably tomorrow.

Okay...so it was a plot episode.
And not the good, mind-fucking brilliance sort of plot.
Just plot.

But there were a few omg moments.

Wow.
The guy who plays West on Heroes is TWENTY SEVEN.
TWENTY-FREAKING-SEVEN. JESUS.


And he's OLDER than David Anders who plays Kensei and was on Alias for FIVE YEARS.


THIS IS SO WEIRD AND WRONG. 

FRIDAY:
Art History notes, two sets.
Regular History hmwk.
Bargaining for tomorrow.

SATURDAY:
UW visit? (Hopefully)
* Meaning, visiting Elliot and Drew because I don't care about UW itself.

SUNDAY:
So much Biology.
English paper.
Actually all the History hmwk because I probably won't do it today.

MONDAY:
Many more lines and improvement thereof.
Art History notes.
ToK reading.
Chuck.
HEROES.

Sylar's back, bitches.
And he's fucking TERRIFYING. As in, more so.
:D

 

I do not want to finish these history notes.
And that's why my weekly Heroes distillment is coming now, on Wednesday morning at almost-three and not Monday night at just-after-eleven.
SWEET.

(Yes...my weekly Heroes post is mostly just so I can use the icon - now fully appropriate because all three of them are finally back!)

(...Twenties time...)

So I watched TV tonight for the first time in forever.


There was nursing of my Top Model addiction.


...and then I watched Gossip Girls which is actually the TRASHIEST thing I've ever seen EVER. And it moves SO SLOWLY. GAH.




I can't wait for next week.
HEROES and also Reaper.
GOOD TIMES. 

Did you ever read those Choose Your Own Adventure books when you were younger?


Weren't they awesome?
Weren't they fun?
Weren't they badass?
(Badass wasn't part of my vocabulary back then, but I definitely remember them being like that.)



WELL,
there are some new ones I found.
I think some of them are rewritten from before, but anyway:
They are no good.

It takes five minutes to get through them, and they are SO LAME.
Like, NOTHING awesome can happen if you want to live.


I'm definitely disappointed...possibly disillusioned. Seems to me there should be more of these.
OMG. What would Choose Your Own Adventure fanfiction be like?

So I just realized the other day I haven't posted in here for...like, months.
MONTHS.
Remember when I was an ADDICT???

...of course, that was when I was on a myspace fast, true enough. But seriously.
NO LIVEJOURNAL FOR MONTHS? WTF IS THAT?


Anyway.



Here's the deal:
I got tired of the computer the other day.
As in, I actually couldn't sit in front of it anymore.
I was overcome with the overwhelming desire to read.
Read as in a book.


I haven't read an entire non-school book in months.
(I'm sensing a pattern...)

So anyway, I went to the library yesterday.
And discovered TWO NEW DIADEM BOOKS. OMG.
They're so bad anymore...but childhood addictions just don't go away. And besides, they were so cracky. So cracky.
I also read a book that could be confused for good reading.
It was well-written, at least.

I went again today and came back with another five books.



...I'm sure everyone is RIVETED by this narrative.


BIRTHDAY IN FOUR DAYS!!!
And I have no idea what I'm doing about that. Oh bugger.
My boys and compatible crowd are taken care of (thank goodness for my brithday buddy Brendan).
But the rest of you...oy vay.

T.T And Elly's gone.
That is sad.




Um yeah.
Welcome back to LJ?

Peace out.
<3

I'm not ready for tomorrow in so many ways.

I'm not ready for class.
I'm not ready for the talk with Quinn I've been putting off.
I'm not ready for an appointment.
I'm not ready for it to be the last school day with the seniors.
I'm not ready at all.


Seriously, during Play Pro today I cried and hurt so much.
I honestly can't believe that portion of that part of my life is over.
Walking into seventh period on Thursday and having such amazing people just....gone. It's going to be so weird.
So hard.


I don't know what I'm going to do next year.
Because I'll have the doubly hard last day - knowing I'm leaving, and knowing others are left behind.
It makes me start crying just thinking about it.

I just have to hope I'll make it through the days to  come.






(In other news, I have MSN. aims_to_misbehave@hotmail.com. Hit me up.)

There is so much going on and I have not posted.
That is life right now, so much.





This week might actually destroy me emotionally.
I'm not quite sure.
But the possibility is definitely there.


T.T

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOMG
HEROES FINALE OMG
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOHMYFREAKINGGOD


CLARISSA GET ON AIM RIGHT NOW
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG